I’ve lived in Belfast a year now and my physical health has improved in some ways, it has helped open my bowels and I don’t walk around looking 6 months pregnant. But I’m in chronic pain, which escalates to well over a 10/10. I take morphine tablets and liquid daily, amongst the other tablets adding up to about 40 maybe more a day. I’m awaiting an admission date for my sigmoidoscopy at the moment as I’m getting a lot of blood and mucus from my back passage and blood in my bag. I hope one day I’ll be pain free. It’s a real challenge some days getting out of bed and I rely on a walking aid as my back is also affected, I have a bulging disk in my lower back. I still focus on making my own money instead of dwelling on feeling so poorly on a daily basis. I hope to one day have children and have a big family, as I have sadly also had two miscarriages.
I’m extremely proud of how far I’ve come since my ileostomy surgery. I’ve moved countries and left my family and friends back in England. I couldn’t have done that at the beginning, I wouldn’t even leave the house.
The advice I would give to others facing surgery is always ask your surgeon as many questions as you need, doesn’t matter how many times, confide in friends/family, don’t ever ever be ashamed of the fact you have to have a stoma, embrace it. And don’t be afraid to speak about it and raise awareness. On your bad days, if you need to cry don’t hesitate to, your entitled to have those down days. Remember what makes your different makes you beautiful.